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Friday, May 13th, 2005
10:03 pm - OMG
I'm a fucking townie. I'm fucking New Jersey trash. I'm getting directions right now from Kilani's friend Katie on how to get to her place in DC from my parents' house in Alexandria, and I have no idea what all these letters and numbers are. I should fucking change into tight stone-washed jeans, a sparkley top, and tease the shit out of my hair. Ugh.

But, I will be seeing Ms. Kilanie Kei, whom I haven't seen for, apparently, 5 years.

Also, Chris and I broke up. Much more resigned finality this time, I think, wherein we realized that we just weren't right for one another. It's confusing, of course, because we're right enough to make it cloudy. I think we'll both be okay, though. God, he and I are a WB soap opera, always cliffhanging around May, aren't we?

current mood: annoyed

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Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
5:38 pm - Bored/Stalkerly
Oh em gee, I am so fucking bored. Last Thursday the accountants on the job I'm working on decided they needed another week of wrap, and that I had to work. Which is fine-I get paid a week for doing not much, the hours are shorter, etc. But Jethuth Chritht, I'm fucking bored. Soulseek sucks when it comes to d/ling tv shows, and don't even get me started on the lack of hardcore homosexual pornography.

So I read the same 10 websites over and over again, respond to emails, and try not to fall asleep. I also hit a mini-gold mine in my internetstalking of high school classmates when I remembered that I was friends with tjreunion2000. So I see who else is friends with it, and KAZAAM, jackpot on stalking. Well, tjreunion2000 only has 17 friends, 7 of which I'm friends with, so it's not that much of a jackpot. HOWEVER, two people I would never have thought to be homosexualists turned out to be queermos! TWO! Madness. Man, I need to keep a master list of who in my grade was gay. Because I'm pathetic like that, yo.

Also, I think I'm going to Virginia next week. Maybe Thursday to Sunday. Vidya, I'll call you. Kilani, Diana, I need your numbers. And since you two are all friends and the such, you should take me out to this "Adam's Morgan" Lani frequents so often.

current mood: bored

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Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
6:43 pm
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! I have a couch!!!! My apartment is finallyfinallyfinally starting to feel like a home. I've got all my major furniture, some decorations, and I sat down for the first time Sunday and vegged in front of the TV. It was fucking great. Now I just have to unpack those five smallish boxes of shit. And clean. Always the cleaning. This week has been ridiculously slow-I can't believe it's only Wednesday-but it's been easy and quiet. We're in the second week of wrap, so there are only four to six people in the office, including me, and I get to break down rooms people have vacated and put things away. It's odd that I love cleaning up production offices so much when I hate cleaning my own place. Blah blah blah. I think I'm going to stalk alumni on now.

current mood: tired

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Thursday, April 21st, 2005
4:29 pm
Work is wrapping up, and I've mostly wasted today catching up on old emails and websites I haven't visted in freaking forever. I wonder how not having reliable internet at home will affect my life once I'm unemployed. I can usually "borrow" from one guy pretty reliably, but the signal isn't strong enough for me to stream anything, or download anything. I think I'll be fairly okay, though, since I'm in the midst of home decorating on a scale largely unheard of for someone with my caliber of laziness. I put sheers up in the arch between my room and the living room, so it looks really pretty, but not in an overly girly way. Well... My next project is to cut long, varyingly wide strips of fabric that I got for free at work, and tacking them to the wall. They're different colors and textures, so it should be pretty cool. The only problem is that there are like 4 brown colors, 2 grays, 2 creamy colors, and a tangerine. The browns and creamies work well, but then I'm not using the exciting tangerine, and I'm not sure about some of the browns. But I don't really have enough grey and tangerine, and I don't think the grey and cream go well together. What's a queerling to do?

current mood: creative

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Saturday, April 16th, 2005
10:26 am - Hello, is it me you're looking for?...
I can see it in your eyes, I can see it in your smile.

Ok, I think I need to buy that on iTunes riiiiiiiiight now. With one of my 2 free songs left. I'm thinking maybe I should buy Lil' Kim's "No Matter What They Say" with the other song. Yes?

Anyway, it's been, like, a year since I posted last. Almost, actually. Let's see...what have I done in that time? I graduated, got a job as an office pa on "Strangers with Candy: The Movie" and the new Jim Jarmusch movie. Amy Sedaris made fun of me, Bill Murray may or may not have though I was stalking him, and I was unemployed for two and a half months. I moved to Greenpoint, which I love. It's in Brooklyn, which I don't love. I mean, I guess I like Brooklyn (and Long Island City and Astoria, Queens, ACK) a lot, but I was so anti-Bklyn for so long, I feel like Cindy Crawford doing ads for Blackglama. Chris and I broke up, and are now back together. I live by myself. My sister had a baby. I'm obsessed with "America's Next Top Model" (it's the only thing I look forward to when I go home to my apt.), the Annie album and M.I.A. album. I'm a production secretary on a pilot for the WB that's wrapping up. I reread some of my old lj entries and missed writing the stupid things. And that brings us up to speed. Wurd

Addendum: Just in case anyone didn't realize it, I always checked my friends list about 5 to 10 times a day. Cuz I'm cool like that.

current mood: blah

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Sunday, August 1st, 2004
3:12 pm - 50 Worst Songs
50 worst tracks meme

Post this list of Blender's 50 Worst Songs of All Time in your journal and bold the songs that you actually like.

1. We Built This City ... Starship
2. Achy Breaky Heart ... Billy Ray Cyrus
3. Everybody Have Fun Tonight ... Wang Chung
4. Rollin' ... Limp Bizkit
5. Ice Ice Baby ... Vanilla Ice
6. The Heart of Rock & Roll ... Huey Lewis and the News
7. Don't Worry, Be Happy ... Bobby McFerrin
8. Party All the Time ... Eddie
9. American Life ... Madonna
10. Ebony and Ivory ... Paul McCartney and Stevie Wonder
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current mood: blah

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Monday, July 26th, 2004
1:49 am - 99 Problems, But Being Origininal Ain't One
Bitch, I just got into Jay-Z's "99 Problems", and now I find out that it's a motherfucking cover! Fuckin' Jay-zizzer. And is that Rob Zombie and Vincent Gallo in the video? Say what?

current mood: angry

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Saturday, July 24th, 2004
7:52 pm - Oh, and...
I've decided to start calling it The New York. Because that's what it is. Spread it like ocular herpes.

current mood: contemplative

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7:23 pm - La la la la (in a Goldfrapp "Hairy Trees" sort of way)
Lazy Saturday with Michelle-went shopping with her for a cocktail dress that may or may not be fancy enough for her tea paahty at Bergdorf's, but makes her boobs look so crazy hot. I had this past week off and next week off from work due to a story which I may tell if I'm really, really bored, or if someone else wants to write for me, which results in me not getting paid these two weeks, then working the two weeks of wrap. Frankly, I could give a flying fuck, because I just want this job to end. What the hell am I doing/going to do with my life? Seriously, what's going on? The only thing worse than thinking about it is being sick of thinking/talking about it. Argh. Also, I think I'm realizing that it was harder to get over Chris than I thought it would be (even though it was for the best blah blah blah), and that I'm really picky when it comes to dating and potential boyfriends. Damned co-dependence. Am I incapable of enjoying life now? Methinks so. I think the answer is porn. Hardcore porn. Do it for a few years, make some money, write a book about it, parlay it into becoming a bon vivant. Or marry into European royalty (I've also realized I'm quite classist, which would probably bother me more if I weren't classist). And now I've rambled, which is fine for a long-overdue update.

current mood: blah

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Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
5:49 pm - Blah
So that lonely feeling of summer has set in full time. Combinations of the weather heating up, humid nights, graduating, being single again, and friends being unavailable have lead me to sitting in front of the computer for hours with nothing to do but keep on staring. But I start my two month job tomorrow, so hopefully the rhyme and reason will fall in place.

Ew, did I just write all that? How about take two:

Man, where the hell has everyone gone? Summer's on the cusp of starting and I'm bored and horny. Let's go dancing.

current mood: lonely

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Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
12:23 am - So....
So I turned down THE job. I was actually quite determined to take it, believing I could work out the kinks and still graduate. I found out, though, that I would be working from 6 am to 10 pm, and that even one or two afternoons off a month to go to class and take finals was not even near the realm of a possibility. Still, it turns out Rudin goes through assistants (he has five) like candy--the record holder for longest lasting was one and a half years. My boss knew someone who was there for 6 days. This man is apparently the worst man to work for, but you meet sooooo many people, and while the turnover rate is extraordinary, the success rate of Rudinites is pretty high. And the money is twice what I can expect to make in an entry level production job thingie. So...if the chance comes up again over the summer, I'll snatch it up. Oh, well. At least I got a lead actor for my short two days before production. Yay and w00t.

current mood: accomplished

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Monday, April 5th, 2004
11:29 pm - Oh my jesus
This is an email I sent my Dad. Also, I think the gay mafia is involved.

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Um..any thoughts, Livejournal friends?

current mood: freaking the shit out

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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
10:29 pm - La dee da
So it's that time of the month again...time to use my livejournal. If only I obsessively wrote as much as I obsessively read other people's (though I'm a lazy commenter, sorry). I got my tassle in the mail today. I'm graduating with honors (and I'll remember...), but all I can think of right now is taping the tassle to one of my boobs and shaking my ass. Well that, and THE FACT THAT MY SHOOT IS IN TWO FUCKING WEEKS AND I'M passively FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. Will this fail spectacularly? I'm glad this short film doesn't sort of play a small part in my future or anything. Oh, wait.

current mood: bouncy

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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
10:10 pm - Meme's are more fun than homework
To prove i'm lamer than both Mr. Kozlowicki and Ms. Robinson
Step 1: Open your itunes/musicmatch/whatever you use to play MP3s
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first fifteen or twenty songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing

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Saturday, January 17th, 2004
1:02 am - Another year closer to death.
It's my birthday. I suspect today/tomorrow will be a mostly low-key, family oriented day. I'm getting a massage, eating steak, and having a homemade pancake brunch, which all sound fairly good to me. Happy January birthdays to the crew of Kilani, Pradeep, and Sandra. Anyone else?

Oh, and a mole I had removed was negatory on the cancer. w00t.

current mood: content

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Monday, January 12th, 2004
1:04 am
Man...I really love peanut brittle. And mangos. Mangos are good, too.

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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
3:41 pm - I hate school and am 3 years old
So I fucking checked my grades today. I got an A- in Advanced Production, the class that he said everyone would get an A in if they were there on time and turned everything in, regardless of whether or not their project got picked. I did all of the above, and my project didn't get picked, so why the fuck do I have a fucking A-? And on top of that, I have an incomplete for my Developing the Screenplay class, which hopefully I can chalk up to him not finishing everyone's screenplays on time, but if this has to do with the fact that my I only turned in 22 pages instead of 30, and that I emailed him my outline instead of turning it in (I forgots, oops), then he can suck my big fat one, since he fucking ran the class like an idiot, and we didn't even get through more than half the class's outlines!!!!!! OUTLINES! not even their first ten pages, or the first 30 pages! Their outlines! Christ on a cracker! The kicker is that this is the same professor for both classes. I'm going to go kill myself by drinking water from the tap. I miss New York.

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Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
12:38 am - T-Day
Aight, bitches, I'll be in Virginia from Thursday to Sunday. 917-575-0132 if you want to hang out, but call quickly, mah dance card's filling up.

Not that anyone reads this.

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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
5:30 am - To all the brothas out there
This is an entry for anyone up at 5:28am who keeps obsessively checking their livejournal friends list in the vain attempt to put off work. This is for Johnny, and Cindy, and Mark, and Bobby, and all those other playas who didn't give up the dream. Keep it alive, sisters! Sing it from the highest mountains!

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
10:54 pm
An article on male menopause, which just means that soon we'll go backwards and discover that men have periods to and then I can say "LEAVE ME ALONE I DON'T WANT TO GO TO CLASS I HAVE CRAMPS!" I'm really excited about this.

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